Rationality vs Relationship

Kafka once said, "We are sinful not merely because we have eaten of the tree of knowledge, but also because we have not eaten of the tree of life." I would tweak this a bit and say, "We are suffereing not merely because we have eaten of the tree of knowledge, but also because we have not eaten of the tree of life."

One of flowers that blossoms in the tree of life is a new found fondness for a person. As it nurtures and flourishes, it is supposed to bear the fruit of a loving relationship. Confronting life , especially the bud of a possible relationship - how it will hold or how it unfold seem uncertain and unsettling.

I am mortified and not at all confident about it. But how long can I think about and rationalize this way or that. Does fear help? Does action guarantee an outcome I am looking for? Well, I have to gather courage. I don't want to become a Kafka with my self-confidence, but I can't lie at the same time. Huh! I need to blurt it out. I need to get the sinful taste of fruit from the tree of life.